Stress

Today I went to meet a close friend from Malacca, a very close friend that I will always try to meet her whenever we got time. Usually got 3 of us will always meet during holidays, but this time another friend at Singapore now studying. I am quiet of missing her. Because only can meet her early of the year or end of the year. Maybe can say I “biasa” to hang around with them already. So this time just met get a close friend, a bit different, weird. I also dunno why, after reached home from that, I felt very tired, but not as happy as last time we had when 3 of us together.

Maybe all this are because of stress, the effect of stress. This afternoon, we discussed about the other girl at Singapore now. She is now alone at Singapore studying, seldom get to Malacca friends over there. All the people she knew are Singaporean who sure will back home during weekend. Thus, she always is alone in the campus, or spends time at library till the time to back home. Hmm… I never ever think that she mind face this stress problem in university. Because from my point of view, she is a happy go lucky girl, always hard-working, good in studying, but this time mentioned about “alone”.

Fortunately, I met get her online just now, she shared her problems with me. We had a very nice and relax conversation. I had tried my very best to concern her situation, give her advice (although I always need friend’s advice whenever I got problems), talk to her what can she do whenever she free. I had given her examples to release stress, like go for jogging or other sports. After tired d, can take time to have a nice rest, then won’t think about nonsense things.

Actually, when we are being alone, maybe this time it’s the challenges for us to be independent. We can never ever always find friends to accompany us, they also have their problems in life too. So, now I try to get myself to relax whenever I am alone, do anything I like to do that I can’t do during weekdays. “Stay away from those people that make me unhappy”, “Stay healthily in my life”. Haha… Right???

I also got problems, got stresses ah!!! Especially now, doing insect collections, so tiring. This work need to spend a lot of time and patience to complete it. Haha... When the time i am in the tension moment, surely can't dp the process of collection. I think I will "ke siao", and spoil it. So, I just try to relax myself whenver I am tired, after then only think of better where to settle all the works, assignments... If really can't "tahan" d, find some1 to talk about it lo... Rite?

MSN Personal Message？？？

Every time whenever we sign in into our msn account, surely will see get which friends are online-ing now. Then, chatting with anyone that is free to talk on the spot. Or just saying “hi” and asking about their latest life out there. But, how many of you will really read and realize the personal message that people had posted? How many of you will concern about the content of personal message of your friends? How many of you will really care about it?

For me, the column of personal message is for me to pass message to my friends who really care about what am I saying or doing or feeling nowadays. I like to change the personal message whenever I got time to online. I like to pass a message to friends, or searching help from some friends who really read get my message. Not just simply put a "wu liao" message, if like that better don’t post anything.

Just for example, few days ago I just changed my personal message since I got to online at home. That message was searching for help from anyone who can help me. Even though I know not many of them can really help me, but just at least give me a support when see get the personal message of mine. So far, only a friend saw it, and she even sms asked me about that. She said she will try her best to help. Although I know it’s hard for her to do so, but at least she willing to spend time to concern about it, and wish me luck.

I never ever wish many helps or concerns I can get when I posted my personal message, but I am willing wish that "Friends" can pay more attention and concern to me, support me, wish me good luck. All this just a simple way to do, can anyone of you do so?

PS: Why suddenly write in english? Haha... Just fun...^.^...

需要安全感的女孩

小时候的她，总是一个人地生活，一个人地上学、下课、温习功课、休息。每每看见其他的亲友们，都有兄、弟、姐、妹陪伴在身边，她都会羡慕他们。不过，渐渐地，她不得不适应这一个人的生活。所以，每当做起事来的她，总是小心翼翼，每次都会做好准备了才出发。而且，她很害怕出错，被长辈责备了，就不被重视了。因此，她每次都会默默地完成她该做的事情，默默地不敢他人知道关于自己的行为、境况。

随着时间的磨练，她已经可以自作决定了。但是，同时她也渐渐地对周围的人、事物，没有任何安全感了。也许，是因为她常常一个人的关系，从来不敢奢望有人愿意协助自己、有诚意地帮助她。所以，现在的她对谁都有个界限，会有一道墙，一道心墙，很难要推倒这墙。为了维持这道墙，女孩每次都会语言攻击他人，是她认为不好的人。只有有心人才会愿意去了解她，不会计较她的个性，愿意很女孩分享喜悦。

但是，无心的人，总会觉得女孩嘴巴很坏，个性敏感。所以，他们也会以语言或行为，伤害女孩。现在，每当听到他们的话后，女孩都会静静的，不再像以前发言了，只会默默地回到房间，找了解自己的朋友哭诉。一次又一次的，女孩也习惯了，也不爱防抗了，随他们说，女孩无所谓了。因为，女孩知道活在当下，要快乐的，不要烦恼地说。

安全感，自己去收集吧！一点一点地累积，自己给自己安全感吧！！！

现在

现在，本小姐的情绪不稳定，识相的不要来烦我，不要在我面前讲些有的、没的废话。还有，识相的不要来惹我“出口成脏”噢！！！哈哈... 尤其是时常被我顶回话的家伙，我受够你们的废话、废动作了。

面具

请问，你时常带着面具过生活吗？坚强的面具？开朗的面具？幽默的面具？你有累的时候吗？
我累了，很累了，活在一直努力的面具下，累了不知该跟谁哭诉，也不好意思常打扰朋友们。因为，大家也有各自的问题。每天都在忙着、忙得忘了时间、忙得忘了吃得好好的、忙得忘了休息。每每早出门，晚上回到房间，做完该做的事情后，坐下休息时，已经快八、九点了。在看看眼前的一堆功课，就快喘不过气来了，还有考试呢？还有复习呢！！！日复一日，每个星期重复，每个月份重复。我快不行了。。。有谁听见、看见我的不同？？？